catch me

catch me

i was getting worried. at six months missy is a lazy one. she refuses to turn over herself. i would flip her then she would cry so we turn her back! since the invasion of the misfits. things have changed. i guess she saw the other babies doing their crawls and turns. it kinda get to her. now she flips over herself. but she still cry when she's tired. she still dont know how to turn back.

i cant slack anymore. i gotta watch her. it's only now that i start to lock the crib! although i still dont do it at night.

yesterday she fell asleep on my chest. so i decided to let her sleep on her tummy. 2 hours later she got up restless. so i tucked her in between two secure bolsters but not swaddled. later in da morning i woke up to find her on her tummy at the corner of her crib! maybe i should start the extra security of locking her crib at night. but its right next to us. if she falls over she will land on our heads! hmmm.. i will wait for more occurences before i kick off the new security check...

ummie

buzz me

buzz me
in sickness and madness. i donned her in a bee getup and head outdoors. armed with 350D and a bumbling baby. out in the park. i found a nice spot. knowing i have a temperamental baby, i waste no time. techniques and methods flew out the window as i shoot shoot shoot before she starts to cry! all was over in half an hour...

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C'caine

dealova

dealova

ingin menjadi mimpi indah dalam tidurmu

aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yg mungkin bisa kau rindu

karena langkah merapuh tanpa dirimu

oh karena hati tlah letih
aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yg selalu bisa kau sentuh

aku ingin kau tahu bahwa ku selalu memujamu

tanpamu sepinya waktu merantai hati

oh bayangmu seakan-akan
kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku

yg memanggil rinduku padamu

seperti udara yg kuhela kau selalu ada
hanya dirimu yg bisa membuatku tenang

tanpa dirimu aku merasa hilangdan sepi, dan sepi
selalu ada, kau selalu ada

= watch original artist =

= CT's version =

love is in the air

love is in the air
we are shift personnels. we have been dodging the night duty for more than a year now. tonight our luck runs out. sure i bade him farewell in da morning thinking i wont see him till the next evening.
nope. we had to meet up.
when was the last time you had a meeting with your love one under the block? minah bawah blok! so we sat awhile, chat alittle and cuddle abit. i have to say the chat topics have moved from the-bully-in-school to when-shall-we-try-for-the-next-one!!
then we move off. him to werk. me to fetch missy. side be side on the road. just the two of us. ok i drove behind. easier to manoeuver n see him at the same time. as the junction approached for us to part. we turned to each other and waved lovingly. oohh.. when was the last time you felt that 'magic' ? the walt disney fairytale of lovebirds cooing. heh.

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my first night out with missy. she went to sleep soon after her cough mixture. hee. only the tele for company. it was bombarded with HUGE shows running concurrently.
TV3-wedding of the year decade!-no reception..pfft.
TV1-twisted interview of xlovebirds of the year-this kept me company
CH5-emmy awards-after the hillarious interview

watched near midnight till he beeped me. with sweet words hushing me to sleep. awww..

zzzz..
C'caine

seventh

seventh
my bumbling baby is seven today...

ummiE

down

down

ummie is too weak to even speak, let alone blog

the break we took went longer then we expected

nonetheless, we will be back

meanwhile i try to nurse ummie back to health

*sniffles & cough*
missyE

loss

loss

we are mourning for a loss in the family

Aisyah bte Hitam

Al-Fatehah

C'caine

wishywashy

wishywashy

as moms to be, who else did we trust but Johnson&Johnson for babysafe toiletries. i got my ToptoToewash at a hefty price from KiddiePalace when NTUC sells nearly $2 cheaper. evilPlace that palace. i prefer Tom&Stefanie.

anywayz.. soon after birth i found out i needed more than NoMoreTears formula to get a peaceful bathtime. just like HitamtheBlackcat, missy hates bath. now she is slightly better. i decided to introduce the rubber ducky. there were 3 in the troop. mother duck & 2 ducklings.

hell no it was NOT a good move. she thought it was an alien invasion. the duck omits a weird sound and it squirts water. she cried coz she seriously think that she was under attack by yellow monsters! haiz..i got to come up with a better strategy...

ok back to Johnson&Johnson. how long does a 500ml bottle last? its been half a year and it looks like its gonna last me another 3 months. now that i've found out other brands smell a whole lot better. i cant wait for this bottle to finish...

ummiE

ahem

ahem

10days later and my baby still have the bug. running nose, cough and lotsa phlegm hanging around. we made another visit to the docs today. a higher dosage of new & stronger medicine my ~baby goes go sleep. she's been drugged!

i dont like it one bit. i feel that she is way too young to be on drowsing cough mixtures.

it is disheartening enuff to see her sick. when an aunt said in my face not breastfeeding. maybe its those formulas that make them sick. subconsciously my parents actually tried to save me. saying things like the flu attacks all ages and how none of the family was successful in BM. so blame it on the genes..wahaha. i love them. my thoughts raced. would she be any better if she was on BM? heck...no point crying over spilled milk.

*cough cough cough* goes my poor baby.

she is damn smart wit me. give her a new taste and she's happy. first try of medicine she will slurp it all up. repeat and she will make a fuss like any other kid. happened again today with the new medicines.

Does anyone use vicks? the label says above two year old. her doc says above 6mths ok. i have been using it on her chest and back since 2mths old! some new mummies advised me otherwise. saying there is something in the market meant for babies. i dunno what and have not been looking.

anyways, i too feel the bug within me. both of us down and out. in case the bambinos take action against us. plus i got my nose buried in HarryPotter&theHalfBloodPrince. its been sitting under the bed since the worldwide launch. he could have saved some extra bucks if he had known.

*goes back to the book & nursing missy of course. hey who's nursing me?

C'caine

scrappy-morningjam

my morning jam

this is my fate when ummie goes to work. lucky for me she only goes to work 4days a week.

its rise and shine at 6am. most times i am already awake waiting with a smile. then its off in the car. plenty of toys dangling above me for me to bite or ogle at. i am a better rider now compared to the initial months when she started working. she had to make some pit stops when my crying would not ease. now i am at ease as long as the car moves. then baba would take me away from my ummie. i will only hear her voice again at around 8pm. sigh..

missyE

big motions

big motions
i have been waiting for two days... no poo!
today is abah's duty and you challenged him..
no more blue moments during poo sessions...
well done abah. we are proud of you...

ummiE

misfits

misfits

they came all geared in jeans. i decided to take that levi's baby gift set a try. boy they were way too big. but who cares anyway. for a photoshoot, ppl wont notice right?..

there was someone new. this cousin of mine is named after wealth. good fortune in his life to come maybe *in god's will*. damn cute too. unfornately he refused to make friends with me. @#$! my very first rejection! well i took it in stride. smiling knowing there are plenty more fishes in the sea...

oh not forgetting my sista.A was there too. as usual we have started practicing our petty squabbles. we have a lifetime to make it perfect!..

hey i like visitors. when there are my age of course. fun fun fun...

ummie like these visitors too coz. sista.A's mom was superb. she got the food ready, clean up after eating and even help to pack the leftovers!! ummie said she deserved an otstanding award for service. dont worry aunty. i will make ummie work just as hard at your place..hee..

do come again another day.

missyE

national day

national day
this is my first national day. we watched national day on the tele in the comforts of our own home. with my family. in my country, singapore. national day holds a sentimental value to my parents. it was their courting season back in 1999. at the national stadium. watching the parade. so ummie tried to catch the fireworks whenever she can with abah to relive the moments. unfortunately abah was always on duty every year. this time he got home early. but i am not fit to go anywhere. so it was juz us and the fireworks on tv.

happy national day ~more
missyE

whats bugging you..

watz bugging you..

i was told she is not well. she got the fever, the cold and the cough. i didnt heed their warning. so i agreed when they say they will bring her to the doctor's tomorrow. when i reached home they had made a call telling us to see the doctor tonight. i shook the idea away. as i sat down for dinner prepared by him. she showed off her cough. it was sad indeed. then her nose starts to flow.

oh my baby is sick...

we finished the food in haste and brought her to the doctors.

oh my baby is bugged...

i fed her medicine. she sucked all her might like it was syup.

oh my baby is brave...

she whined her way to sleep. he reckon she should sleep by his side. so for the first time she will be sandwhiched on our bed. i so disagree.

oh my baby is pampered...

read my baby's plea

C'caine

abah boleh

abah boleh

sundays is abah's duty. but he will escape when i sleep over nanny's place. this week he gladly took up the challenge. then he brought it up a notch by taking me out! he is more confident with me now. even if its not just the two of us...

we're going out. we were gonna meet nadya. they are fetching us of course. abah dont even have an ezlink card. and ummie brought the car to work. the last i met nadya was when she was fresh at the hospital. she was a big gal then and a bigger gurl now. she is two months my junior. she got a great mummy. i fully 'utilised' her while ummie's not around. it was a short meeting though. a nice sunday breakfast at changi...

missyE

burfday

burfday
they sang burfday songs for me.. there were cakes.. there were pizzas(for me to smell & ogle at).. and there were gifts..FOR ME... therefore i declare it's my burfday.. woohoo... i have to say it came earlier than i expected.
it started quite wrong really. we were all dressed up. but we headed to the clinic. nightmare was realised when the DrJoanne prick my behind! ouch.. i went to sleep soon after. i was to be left at baba's place while they have a field day. but abah felt for me and got permission from ummie to go out as a family instead. so we went to booboo's posh hangout mall. we were one day too early for booboo hunting though....
it's my first trip to Junior Paragon. very posh indeed. they left my carrier behind. they could not find anthing cheap enough to bind me and ummie together. everything was 3 digit. not that money concerns me but they keep passing me around! they thank the stars that i am very light...
GSS may be over but ummie still manage to go crazy at metro & AUSSINO. she has been under the shopping spell since her post natal depression days. and she never stop since. she reckon she may need help. but i am not complaining. i got myself an all new bedding set. it looked & felt different i thought it was a new bed! ummie is not a fan of the bumper set. i dont move around much coz i'm still being swaddled to sleep. she also got me a new sleeping bag. plus a new fiited sheet and fleece blanket makes all the difference. i say she's a smart shopper. not buying anything above $20.
so that's what i did on my bufday. out with the ones i love, who spends all their money on me! yeah.. i got a new 'bed' and also a huge stuff car from Disney's CARS. it goes well with my huge spongebob..heh...

missyE

weaning

weaning

i did it.. i like that thing ummie shoves in my mouth today.. noice..

when she pause to take my pictures i whine for more! but i smiled anyway...

this time ummie dont like what she fed me. she says its got a sediment like texture. it also leaves a sandy trail on the floor. and i have to drinks lots of water to compansate. ceh.. so what..

actually

i have been having a hard time to pass motion now. i am waiting for my fruit juice...yummy..

!@#$.. these parents wanna control everything. just give us what we want.. and i want fruit jush..heh..

missyE

baby bash

baby bash

it was tok abah's birthday on the first of August. we babies crash the party like no tommorrow. creating a havoc... haha.. on the contrary really.. all of us behaved well. i know i did. because of the many hunks there. only to find out they're my cousins. ceh.. my sistaA was there too. she may be younger but she's much bigger than i am. she weighs a hefty 7kg. thats 1kg++ more than me. she's got great looking turkey thighs too. all dressed in hawaiian hula. showin off her assets. ummie couldnt take her camera of her. sheesh... hint: multiply..

we were jammin and singing and dancing and chatting.. no crying allowed in this birthday bash and all agreed.. i am beginning to like birthdays.. ummies birthday is coming. abah kept on saying it to her. but it couldnt be everyday could it. when is mine i wonder. hope it'll last for the whole year.... yahoo...

~hapi birtday to me.. hapee bidday to me.. ~
missyE

krring

krring

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can anyone tell me what is pizzahut's number...
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hmmm... but this phone taste good enough..
are these onions rings ?@#...
.

missyE

morning class

morning class

what i think of these BLOGGERS or BLOGGING
~ self indulgence clowns
~ idiots
~ publicity seekers
C'MON MAN..... GO GET A LIFE !

~GlenOng & FlyingDutchman

apparently the only blogs he reads is XiaXue's

C'caine

sunday

sunday

is my first day of the week. he is home alone with missy. i hope he last longer this time...

huh.. this time i gave up. seeing that production was not running. i decided to take half day. then he called saying her poo was 'seketul' plus there was were traces of blood.

my colleague actually send me to the NEL station.. but i did not make it in time for the doctors.. no worries we just go shopping at that certain mall in Sengkang instead. my baby looks contented. apparently he had given her 3 bottles of morning booster. he mixed cereal in her milk for 3 consecutive feeding. and missy kept asking for more... up to 180ml per feed..

if thats the secret to a contented missy, why not...

if he is happy, why not...

why not C'caine why not..

well it ended there. i made normal concoction for the rest of the day...

pLus plenty plenty of plain water of course.

C'caine

inspection

inspection

she don't like feeding times. its time for a new strategy. we head down to the supermarket. we got her a new formula ~NAN. see how this one fairs. next food for missy. i was still looking for brown rice or beras ayam. what's the diff? this time i was looking for those instant ones. found them in boxes written in chinese but halal. he told me to take the Nestle cereal. no need to grind or cook. somehow he knew i went thru a lot for that small bowl. or maybe he wont have to hassle too? so i pick up a rice cereal. but i still took a pack of the instant brown rice. assuring him that no cooking is required. he answered my doubt that it should not be troblesome for me. hee thanx. then we hurried home as guests were coming...

.

he had been talking to his colleagues that missy is skinny. saying we have trouble feeding her. so an experienced colleague with 3 kids, no less, will come over with his family. his wife works at a clinic. so she knows a thing or two bout formulas or feeding. she may get samples for us.

they arrive when missy was doing a symphony. i was in the kitchen getting the wares ready. soon the symphony reaches its climax. missy was in his colleagues arm now to his wife. she came in the kitchen but didnt allow me to hold her. she demanded for Gripe water as missy's tummy was hard. to feed her with a syringe by the corner of her mouth, she instructed. the smphony goes on. obviously missy never react well to strangers. i learnt that since she was 2months old. five mins later she pass her to me. missy calm down soon after. she instructed me to rub minyak telon on her tummy and feet. then she exchange tips on diaper changing, formulas and feeding. she mix cereal in her kids milk at every feeding. jadi kenyang..

then as missy got quiet. their kids were in the spotlight. my house is not child friendly. boys will be boys. they grab everything they see. one is 5yrs old. spongebob dvd and a drawing book will keep him busy. its the 18mth old that got me laughing. its scary but i want my 18mth old to drive me crazy too.. hee.. then complain and cry.. wahaha... their mom took missy again. this time missy fool around with them. she said missy just wants company. she saw how cold he was to missy. she suggested that daddy should learn to talk to baby more often. soon it was time for missy to go to bed. she taught me to put vicks on her chest. also to wash missy's face to rid any 'spiritual stuff'. like something she saw. or something ppl say.. thats about it. they left soon after.

i am not offended by her actions. its just that i heard them too many times. in fact i just put down the phone with my grandma. she asked if i got any holy water from my uncle?

i accept the fact that missy is a fussy baby. but i also believe that all my work and his is worth it. for all the smiles and laughter she gave is priceless... we just have to sabar...

C'caine

2nd chance

2nd chance
let's try this one more time...

you hate plain water. we'll start with a simple test. drinking using a spout...

PASS

eating home made white coloured brown rice gruel (this time with milk)...

FAIL

dummy for comfort...

PASS

maybe you hate the spoon? maybe you cant work your tongue to swallow?

how bout gruel in a bottle...

FAIL

your milk with cerelac...

PASS

till the last drop!

enough hustle to put us to sleep

Zzz..

C'caine

sixth

sixth

my baby turns six today. feeding time. i got all the ingredients ready. then i changed plans. he would like to be around for her first feeding. so we stalled feeding time till later part of the day. after all the hassle i got tired. there were tons of work to do. double laundry. clean n vacuuming. cooking dinner. on top of that i have a new routine of cooking for missy. its way too much work.

*all this work for healthy lifestyle?*

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seriously whats wrong with intant baby cereals. its loaded with nutrients. it taste good. best of all. its damn easy to make. why i got caught up in the healthy puree food. ok for fruits and vegetables maybe i would still do it. but rice. thats just too messy. especially when such easy alternatives are available.

we grew up in it. my younger cousins grew up in it. nothing is wrong with us. so why not. but all those ppl can make it why not me.. maybe they cheated and had help. *in denial really*

i am scorned because my baby is too young to appreciate what i just did for her birthday. after less than 10 scoops. she refused to take anything else. not water. not milk. nor pacifier. she got disturbed for one hour. then she start screaming her head off. i mean really scream for the next one hour. *new month new style*..

but this time he decided to comfort her. he wanted me to eat first. *i am a phsycopath when it comes to dining. die die i want us to eat together.* as he chants prayers to her. i tried to comfort her too, thats when she screamed like i was dirty! that made me sat on the couch and tears start flowing. what a way to celebrate her birthday. i am sorry baby....

he soon gave up. he instructed me to swaddle her. i was fuming when i found her swaddle was ruined in the laundry. i wrapped her in her yellow kiddopotamus that now had turned bluish. arrgh.. what more could go wrong. she went to sleep soon after the swaddle. we only manage to sit for dinner at nine. but he made my day when he complimented my cooking... thanx hunny...

*now to clean the last bit.. that is the rice cooker...sigh..*

C'caine

genting holiday

peaked pt 2

the day started with a bath at six in da mornin. i screamed in detest. then it got cosy in the new wrap. i resume to sleep mode. everything moved so fast.

we got in the cab. abah is taking up the role of logistic manager. he has to run the show for us. its his first time. ummie handed over the role coz she had me in tow.

we stood beside the bus that will take us to the peak. when suddenly all the buses started to move. we actually missed the bus! it went by right under our nose. abah just couldnt move fast enough and he's always on smoke breaks! he failed terribly on the first hour on the job. ten mins later we settled in another bus. after all that hassle i comfort myself immediately with a nice bottle of warm milk.

i was quiet and i sleep thru the journey mostly. giving a weak smile at the customs officer. ummie was most glad with me.

after a slow hike up the very slow bus ride. we arrived foggy, wet, cool genting. the place was huge. the whole place is a resort. all prices 'resort' too. ummie was not comfortable with the loads of ppl. now ummie knew why she avoided Genting. she hates crowd. she hate being a tourist in a commercialised destination. she usually takes the unbeaten track. yet she couldnt believe how efficient the check in was. they thought of everything. their crowd control was superb. malaysia boleh... we(sgp) make up the minority of tourist. there were many many arab ppl in black suits. scary.

so we walk and walk and walk for two days. they were not able to take any rides thanx to me. so we simply see what the place have to offer. giving my parents the perfect opporunity to do some major shopping. boring.. i sleep thru them trying out clothes and shoes. its a bit of a topsy turvy whenever i am in the changing room with ummie. she never puts me down. not even during toilet breaks!

i was an angel except in the hotel room. its boring. i wanna go out where its cool and so much to see. i wake them up early to go out. when they return to the room for solat. i will start whining again when they start to slack. it works.. we would go out walking some more... heee...

abah had another first job that he failed terribly again.. ummie made him change me when i poo. when ummie heard abah was about to puke. she saved him and me of the agony. for that abah bought her two pairs of timberland.. hee...

i'm tired... just enjoy the picture essay k.... ~its in ummie's multiply...

missyE

encounter

encounter
at 1745hr my grandma called. she told me my sis, pinky, is not back from school yet. she wants me to call my dad. grandmas tend to hussle us somtimes.
my dad works odd hours. so he is probably with her going out to meet my mom. on the phone he told me he called home to check at 1600hr but she's not home yet.

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pinky is not with my dad...

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he told me he will call the bus driver. while i will wait for his call.
only then, I will call the school to enquire...
pinky has classes after school on Wednesday but will be home by 1600hrs. still its Tuesday not Wednesday.
my heart starts to race. but calmly i told my colleages to hold the line. *Give me five mins. my sister is missing...*
i left their shock faces and head to the toilet. ease myself and calmly wait for the call.

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dad- *dia kat rumah cik Taha. baba cakap ngan cik Taha tadi.*
sigh... is an understatemant really. the relief i let go was enourmous.

.

now my anger swells. i call my grandama to inform her. now to talk to pinky...
kids (2 girlie cousins age 9 and 8 & 1 boy age 7) picked up the phone with noisy background of laughter and singing. i call for pinky. she was still singing when she heads for the phone. a cheery hello greeted me. with a low stern voice i start my interrogation.
she claims she told my mom on sunday. (she can practically hide under her skirt) she admitted she told no one else today. she insisted no one instigated her to go over. (the girlie cousins often calls her to chat and brainwash her) i point out it very clearly it was wrong. she got the hint within 1 min of the call as her voice mellows down. i talked to her cousin too for not being responsible. she should insists that all parents should know their whereabouts. by three gruelling mins all noises in the background had subside. i was a killjoy.

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*what you did was wrong. something bad may have happened. i love you very much.*

.

now she starts to sob. which makes me melt. i had to turn on my mother mode. i always have been with her. we were inseparable (as sistas) till now. i had to teach her or she will repeat this anytime she likes. told her to stop crying and i put down the phone with a good note.

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1 min later

she rang *what is baba's phone number?*

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she took action immediately. she called my grandma and now trying to get my dad. my tear's welled up. she's my darling sis. obedient and smart. i love her too much...

i wish she could have stayed with me and be mine...

C'caine

gates of hell

gates of hell

are open...

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it's here. its time to seal 'em windows shut. or your curtain go black with soot. or your feet goes black walking around at home. i try to understand the culture but they could not explain well enough. its just something they do since donkey years ago. heres one that explains into gory details. so much that when i ask for their opinion they say it too 'chim'. then there are others with opposing principals... and i quote

Ghost are always around every day. Who says that they only appear during the 7th
lunar month?

its an ordeal really. for us who are home proud and cant stand the sight of dirt. but there are too many of them (burnin n yearnin). in a new estate its not so bad... i thought.. apparently this year they woke up and live the tradition... what a mess. its sad coz some of the damage will stain forever. well they (gahmen) are trying to curb this issue. with not much success really...

.

but wait its like double jeopardy this year.. its hungry ghost month x2.. seehere..

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skeptical. i had many encounters today. i cannot comprehend the way my machines react to this. its weird! at 1830hrs sharp. my machines start to fail with the most absurd reasons. LAN connection failure! keyboard n mouse failure! like hey... give me a better challenge. still its enough to stop me from going home. idiot... i got held up when i have ngaji today. it was 2245hrs by the time i fetch missy. i covered her head, hold her tight & shield her so no one or nothing could harm her...

believe it or not... its better prevention than cure... if there is a cure for ghostly encounters...

C'caine

morning class

morning class

happiness is not a destination...

it is your way of travel...

~GlenOng

C'caine

genting trip

peaked pt 1

we're back.... here is a fast one...

need to catch some sleep... will update more later...

about the trip....err.. what can i say??...

again!.. again!.. again!...

missyE

accomplished

accomplished
i did it all.. safety audit went on like the breeze.

YES!..

so i will go on a holiday with no worries. yeah.. a well deserve break. its so overdue. even the guys at werk are making fun of me. saying that my baby clip my wings..hee..

so its my first holiday since the arrival of missyE. i'm anxious to see how she fairs on her maiden voyage. i'm prepared for her worse. we are all packed and ready to go...genting... wahaha.. damn near right. with all my travelling of yesteryears i never set foot at the famous peak. so its my first too. chose it coz of the weather. hope it'll be friendly to missy..

thats not all... i also accomplished a dream of mine. i really wanted the hug-a-bub or cuddly wrap or peapod.. but it was way off my budget.. but i'm stubborn.. so with a little innovation, a little patience, a little snipping with thread n needle....

ta-daaa~... my very own hug-a-missyWrap-pod... kherkhehehe..

C'caine