freeze

freeze
coming 6mths i am still being swaddled to sleep. it calms me down. but i still kick myself silly even when my eyes are already closed. so what happens when i am outside. without the comforts of my ummie's cuddle. how am i supoose to sleep? i'm lost. i just dont know what to do with 'em hands...

missyE

slither

slither

ummie have been busy lately. everytime i hear her going "audit audit audit"... whatever it is. it is making me miss my daily dose of booboo world.. haiz..

anywayz i have discovered something new this month...

i swish swosh it around my mouth and stick it out to find more new taste each time. i love to stick it out and it drives them crazy. i am trying to tell them i am ready for the yummy world of porridge. i know the taste of my mittens, fingers and toes. well lately not only mine.. hehee...

missyE

formula

formula

you has been drinking only 23oz per day when you should down about 40oz. recently you threw tantrums at night. you tossed and turn for an hour. then cried for another hour. i had a flashback of the confinement periods. Cuddled, your face at my breast reminds me of our difficult feeding times... now it still is difficult to feed you. you refuse to finish your drink. i would be happy if you can finish the small avent bottle.

i have tried many formulas.
2nd month - similac
3rd month - enfalac ~juz bcoz it has higher DHA
4th month - enfalac & friso
5th month - mamil & similac

i never follow the rule of thumb of not mixing formulas. hee.. dangerous concoction huh... i switch brands to see if you would prefer other milk thus making you drink up. to no avail though. i dedcided to switch back to similac due to poo-ing issues. if i were to follow the theory of breastmilk poo and formula poo. sometimes those on breastmilk dont poo because it is well balance thus no wastage. so i noticed that with enfalac she poos more(quantity) and curd like. while with similac she poos less and muddy. so i deduce that the milk is well balance!... hee.. anyway it still doesnt resolve the problem of your low milk intake.

so i decided to give you a boost. i had a can of cereal. so i added a tablespoon of cereal to 5oz of milk instead of your intake of 4oz. you hooked on the bootle after the first taste. then Voila!..you finished the whole bottle. i find it most amazing....

so it will be a new ritual for you... one bottle booster for breakfast...

ummiE

mourn

mourn

kudos to those who arrived work on time today.

my le coq sportif's were pumping the pedals (manual tx) at CTE this morning. stuck during peak hours and yet the LTA charged me 2bucks for my workout. clad in white but still loyal to les blues. the whole world wants to know why mrYazid acted the way he did. an exit to his career in such manner! and of course ppl with good looks will always disappoint you.. haiz...

i wonder if i will have the same spirit to follow up in 2010.

C'caine

crab

dine in

i have not been cooking for sometime now. coz i either burn them or they dont taste good somehow. i questioned him and he would prefer me to cook. so i did it. Superwoman is back. i juggle the laundry, missy, cleaning, missy, vacuuming, missy, cooking, missy.. haiz... but i reap the benefits.. he will be more helpful, more daddy-ish, more cuddly and of course more lovable.. armed with jazz in the city 2... i say bring it on... pardon me...

so missy what did we have for dinner...

C'caine

scrappy-market

superM
juz ummie and me at our monthly marketing...

my stroller can fit 6watermelons and more space to stack huge diapers... so once i can grab i will definitely add to her shopping lists... hee...
we go wheezing thru the aisles. she would give me new toys to play. funny though coz those toys never came home with me. i hate it when shopping is over... she would leave me alone to carry all the goods up to our place.. haiz...

here are the best finds...
i had nappy rash for 2 weeks. ummie was about to try mustela or desitin when Dr Joaane Tan recommended this. it goes away almost instantly. puts a smile on everyones faces... no more rashes for me...

all women of the universe hear this...
this is no ordinary sanitary napkin. a must try. it is superbly, comfortable you wont know its there. especially those with sensitive skin. ummie was so excited she wanted to call everyone to buy. if only she had known earlier, her confinment days wont be so gloomy...
if only they come in diaper form....

missyE

tagged

tagged

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1 i have a birth mark at my back... coincidentally is the exact spot as abah's!

2 i wear a hat when i go out coz i have a bald patch and flat headed

3 i have a tiny dimple on my lower right corner of my smile

4 i am a baby cameleon my neck can change colours!

5 i can laugh and play without uttering a sound

6 i am an indian gal!!!

missyE

m&b

m&b
5 things you never dreamt you'd enjoy ~ m&b july'06

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1 Getting your baby to burp. It's a lovely excuse to have a bit of a pat and a cuddle, for a start- and there's something wonderfully satisfying about hearing that nice big milky sound of success

err.. i am too lazy for this especially when she's going to bed.. next!

2 Peering at diaper full of poo. Oh, the myriad joys of dirty-nappy dissection! What on earth did you and your husband find to talk about before the baby arrived?

this particular diaper session. he doesnt even had a go at it yet! to think of it as something i enjoy..no way! although it is a relieve to see that she has pooed for the day otherwise more trouble might be brewing....

3 Being woken at 6:30am. With a gummy smile

SubahannaLLah... MasyaaLLah.. this i totally agree...

4 Watching teletubbies. Although it does begin to pall a bit on the 198th viewing...

i would NEVER let her watch this... never..

5 Going to the hairdesser's. Or anywhere you can get a blissful hour or two just for yourself!

great idea.. will go tommorrow after my workout... woohoo..

C'caine

paris hilton

underage

they dont make songs like this anymore. simple, catchy and fresh. its a bonus for ummie who is a ska fan. so she totally dig this song. however much controversy is attached to the singer. i hear she got a bad bad reputation. i heards words like 'bimbo' 'slut' 'blonde'. i think 'blonde' got something to do with colour. well i like the song so what about the singer, i dont care. ummie is watching her video. but she said i'm too young... hey..not fair!...

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so if you are above 18 click here... most of you are not anyway.. so forget about cheating.. or Albus Dumbledore may put a counter spell.. and you will be old for life!.

missyE

heat

heat
it looks bad... but before you report my parents for child abuse.. hear me out...
every evening i will be all sticky and smelly.. ummie always hint out loud that i smell bad when i am at baba's house. but they love it. they say thats the best part of a baby!

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i may have sensitive skin. then there is the scortching heat and high humidity. thus friction of my perspiration under my folded skin is the result when you put all those factors together...

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at home where its windy and cool. it will not sore like the picture. ummie got some medication from my doc for them to apply for me. but the key factor is to keep me dry. they so fail at doing that at baba house. i am partly to be blame too. i always pull away my bib while feeding. so all the dirt and milk residue will 'cake up' at the folds. those cakey residue smells horrid. major foul smelling cake!...

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but the damage is done. now my skin is two toned. white and tanned. more like a zebra maybe... haiz...

missyE

chance

chance
ummie pass off a chance to go watch world cup final! haiz..

i could be a cheerleader like aunty shireen suggested.

too bad.. unless anyone got 10000 buckeroos to spare?

missyE

nuts

nuts

things are going rather slow now. it drives me nuts. i would call for them but they take the longest time to respond. even playtime is just chatting, peek-a-boos and tickles. no 'fly' me in the air or dancing wit ummie. they have slacked. must be too much tele and munching chips! i heard a commotion just now. they got some free gifts in their bag of chips.

LOSERS.... imagine excitement over these... its really sad...

missyE

goats

blur
watching 2 critical matches then going to work immediately after...

i became some what disorientated.. i think.. because i swear i saw goats on trees!! do you?....

oily facts about goats, trees and goat poo!

C'caine

guten morgen

guten morgen
i have been busy lately thus my long absence...

see you at the finals...
missyE

hi5

hi5

My baby turns 5.

i was lost in motherhood till now. i tried so hard to do things right. to make things look perfect. to have a gorgeous bundle of joy to show the world. thru the journey I got confused, depressed and burnt out...

despite the many experiences i had. i am one who handles a baby rather carelessly. i simply plonked you on a soft surface and shove the bottle in your face. while other mothers would craddle their baby in their arms to feed...

*the beddie buddy secret...

Jeff was helping ummie hold the bottle for you*

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countless times i made you trip in the bath tub. i made you knock your head while placing you in the car seat. oh how i made you cry. abah would always throw stern looks at me when I fumble around you...

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then when I see a fellow mother handle their baby so tenderly. i thought i dont love you enough...

but when you play the crying game. then i fail to soothe you no matter what i try. i thought you dont love me....

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forgive ummie my love, for i have sinned...

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now that you have a mind of your own. you are teaching me to take things as it comes. you blow me away with your gaze and antics. you never fail to give me a thank you smile for fetching you each day. how you get distracted during play to look for me. when I caught you spying at me you turn away smiling coyly..

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Oh how you make our hearts flutter wit love. how I find it incredibly hard to believe you are ours. oh I hope its not too late to enjoy these beautiful moments...

ummiE

teach me

teach me

on track for a better me. i am looking for classes to educate me on how to raise my kid bright and healthy. i do read up on the web but its somewhat limited. i dont read much books so i guess attending such classes would do me good. *i don want missy to miss out the wonders of reading*

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so i went across these.. mostly gov sites..

MCYS

Parents as Coaches

Synergyst

KKH

not much really. may find better luck at CCs. if any of you have any to reccommend me, please do..

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highlighting what i found, *just to amuse myself... hee..*

Advantages of bottle feeding
Father can share in the feeding and bond with your baby too
Longer time between feeds
Your baby may sleep longer between feeds
Good if you do not enjoy breastfeeding
Someone else can feed your baby
Easier to bottle feed in public

my next assignment : to brush up my english and attend creative writting classes

C'caine

jolt

jolt
bulk of our letters are bills of course. all with my name on it. however one mail stood out. it was from SPH. he highlighted it to me. i told him maybe i won a contest somewhat. he got excited. in turn i too got hyped up. he was confident it must be a lucky draw contest. now that i am writing it out... i could have been a new owner of NissanSunny from NTUC! well i knew we were gonna be disappointed. he ripped it open and pull out a nice heavy coloured printed kinda of paper.. the letter spelled out for us in bold...
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UNSUCCESSFUL REGISTRATION
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with a familiar logo : shape.com?.... then it hit me.. arrgghh.. my set goal.. my shape run... my promise to syidzz.. my 5km run cert.. *hee.. still going for certs...*
due to overwhelming response they said. i was not successful. some lines later it says that i can write to some athletics association about my failure to register. thats it... maybe they dont have my name listed in the athletics association. maybe they know i am a fat mother who wont make it to the finishing line.. they are so wrong. i can make it.. just a wee bit longer than others... hee
well i am still invited to the event and still able to collect the goodie bag.. woohoo.. all this without having to pay the $15 that they asked for earlier.. yahhoo..
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but what about my efforts.. wasted? of course not.. i have to admit it feels like it... now i will change my course. i will start to d.i.e.t.. ha!.. i will try to lose all that post preggiweight that is still hanging at the lower half of my body... in fact i am feeling all pshyched up to lead a better life!
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thanx to Oprah's episode 'Ten Years Younger' it features how woman got a slap in their face by their own horrid reflections. so they workout and got a change of wardrobe and hair makeover... voila a new person is evolved. well they did not cheat though. they really sweat it out.. so now i can do it too..
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lets start with exercise.. check *will try to do more at home and walk more of that 5klik routine*
food... check *have to practice healthier eating habits.. bluek*

H20... check *i cant seem to let 1L pass down my throat yet its not even the min req*
diet pills.. check *bad move but what the heck*
err.. ya wardrobe.. check *a new hijjab donner so most of my wardrobe is new anyway.. but sexy clothes is out of the question*
hair makeover... check *lets make that face makeover instead*
quality time wit my husband and family... check *once a month nightout with him plus looking out for diving courses as i write.. family?..err think later*
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now those are big ambitions but rather achievable really... so lets start now..
*i'm off to lunch at McDonald's!...oops... err..without french fries ok wat....*

C'caine

feetish

feetish
with the introduction of foot rattles. i have discovered my feet. my feet goes everywhere i go. except when i stand or when ummie put me in the carrier. even my hands go missing then...
i can grab but unable to hold on. but with my feet i can hold on as long as i like. i hold 'em when i am in the car, in my bouncer, on my playmat, whenever i wish really...

i will tell anyone everything bout my feet. *if they understand that is* how many feet i have, how many toes, what colour, what they feel like, i just dont know what they taste like... hmmm...

missyE

glued

glued
i have been glued to the tele every night watching this. (explains my absence and blogger's block) i'll put baby to sleep and be engrossed with Korean opera. today is the finale of 70 episodes. i only watched intensively like 3 weeks ago. leaving my him to enjoy his soccer matches and laundry! he has been ferrying baby and doing laundry!... boy i better wake up. i am afraid that he may explode and tell me off. today last, i promise. after this i will trigger my superwoman mode...

*sing* i'm not your superwoman..hmmm..mmm..

C'caine

resist

resist

Ffeud.. resist i must..

for now he will take over the baby ferrying service..

C'caine

grow grow grow

grow grow grow

recently we went to a friends place. much to my surprise you behaved like any lady should. no 2hr crying spells!

you donwanna sleep. donwanna sit. you just wanna stand. you simply whine a bit when we put you down. you wanna stand and chat, blab and jab... i believe the winning formula is the presence of 5 other kids around you. yeah they may be older but you so wanted to share your thoughts with them. you learn something new though.. you went blrrrrrgh... with your saliva sprouting every where. apparently one of the abangs thought you that. hurray to your fast learning trait but it was a messy lesson...

you are no longer the basic needs *cry only for milk. poop n sleep* baby. you are getting wiser. responding to our calls and play. i love you. i still go to abah and say we have a baby. you are our baby. masyaAllah. its a lot for me to absorb. so wait for me to enjoy these moments before you start talking back at me...

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Happy Father's Day Abah...lurve

ummiE

dry run

dry run
had an early start today. i have been working out for this. so i had my dry run *or walk for that matter* this morning. doing it alone is no fun. no one to push me. i am even too shy to run. what if pple see me. *i keep checking my blindspot* this cha bo run 40m stop. walk 2km. run 20m stop. walk some more. heehee..
still walking thru 5klick i get to see many many things. the mak ko tai with his morning face, apeks meet-n-greet sessions by the bridge, frogs, birds n squashed dead snakes even... but the best find is the many many durian trees with fruits! i also saw a trail leading to it. maybe will bring a bag the next time round and 'em durians will be my weights... i chose a quiet road so its peaceful. smelling the nature at its best.. a stinking yesterday's catch fish, shiity aroma from the swampy area of the punggol river... all those sights and sounds n smell with the breeze in may face made me miss my hiking days. i have to say it was good therapy for me....

to my dear gonjeng,
i am sorry. it is competitive run. i want you do your dash don wait for me... i have never been a runner. now with the ageing n heavier body. my stamina has also depleted some. but do not fret my love. i will be der wit you at the starting line. upon completion, you go change and get some drinks n snacks. wait for me at the finishing line and cheer me on. i will be der its just a matter of time...

C'caine

beddie buddy

beddie buddy

some ppl develop habits to make themselves go to sleep. my boo would fidget with her shirt hems while drinking milk before bedtime. my uncle would sniff the corners of his pillow. my fren would suck his thumb. well i have my binky for that. i have not developed any fetish yet. ummie hopes that i dont come up with any. however i do have a beddie buddy.

meet Jeff the Giraffe. he had been my sleeping companion since i was 2mths old. i can always count on him to make me sleep sound wit no bad dreamz. one day, i am gonna teach him to get me my milk. so i wont have to bother my parents...

actually it belongs to ummie. abah gave it to her. but i like it very much so its mine.. heehee... goodnite

missyE

goodies

goodies
i just received my mother's day gift. better late than never.. it was an Elba clothes dryer.. gah...
i am a sucker for anything to make my housework less of a chore. heehee.. next is to look for some gadget to fold the clothes for me maybe..
more good things coming my way tomorrow... his fren's wife *so long winded* decided to join me on my amore workouts. yeah... plus i have been shopping at the JohnLittle and NewBalance warehouse sale recently. so i will be going out with a bang tomorrow. armed with new shoes, pants, shirt even sports bra! *in delicious colours too..white, pink n red* i am ecstatic. new gears plus a sparring partner to boot.. woohoo..

C'caine

breastfeeding

breastfeeding

so the topic of the day is breastfeeding. according to Aniq n Ajab...

its obvious that i took my failure in EBM rather seriously. having reading up on its benefits i wanted to make it happen. i know that no one in my family history was successful but i thought i have the makings of a full pledge breastfeeding mom. unfortunately that is still a dream to me. coz i crashed n burned...

i talked to him about it. i knew i needed help. i went to 2 docs! so i got myself some pills....

Do you have postpartum depression?Take this quiz...
Your score on the Edinburgh Postnatal Depression Scale was 19
A score of 12+ indicates the likelihood of depression, but not its
severity.

when enough is enough... here i am looking for help...

they actually rub it in... not only their babies get better nutritions, mommies lose weight faster, they get to keep their sanity too...

Breastfeeding is associated with enhanced mental health

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i am a very cheerful person by nature. when missy threw tantrums at ppl's homes. my aunts were praising me for being a brave girl. coz obviously missy is quite a challenge. they said they may not be as gung-ho as me going thru it all alone. i simply smile or crack jokes. little did they know that i will bring it home to brew! wahaha..

seriously i am ok...*smiles*

C'caine

X

X

is the letter of the day

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X-tra... i have been drinking up to 150ml at times. so i will simply take in less at the next feeding...heehee

X-ercise... ummie have been bobbing me up and down while we do exercises together...

X-men... i am still waiting to watch this movie...

..x..x..err... how about..

mark-X... i love to drool at its front view of course.

i like going on joyrides nowdays. with ummie it can be anything from walking, riding or hiking... i will go anywhere with you ummie. anywhere...

*sings* i will follow you

follow you wherever you may go...

missyE

nip n tuck

nip n tuck
today goes down in history. but ummie say most likely i will not remember the date. so logging todays event is a good idea...

it was a family affair. we head to ADIDAH family clinic & surgery. easy name.. sounds like my shoe! there we took plenty of photos as it was just us. no one else... soon we went in this cramp room that smells different. i was acting cool with my denim dress.. then ummie place me on this cold bed like surface with a light shining so bright on me. hey i like to be in the spotlight but not literally. i started to whine. then i heard a familiar melody. its from my crib! then there was my rattle too. ummie brought my toys along, but why? then this woman came and fondled me down there. i cried to see that ummie didnt save me from that woman. then an excruciating pain came. only then ummie rescued me. she covered me up proper and gave me a good ol' ummie hug. i went quiet immediately. abah came along to say how proud he was of me. heehee... but i dont know why really. ummie said i was a brave girl too. she also mentioned the word 'sunat'. well the day just started we went on wit eating and shopping but i am too sleepy to... Zzzz...

missyE

mayday mayday

mayday mayday
0800hrs - saw 3 police officers roaming about.
~1 min later - sirens broke silence in our serene estate
~police started running, firefigters combing the area
~civil ambulance arrived, a stretcher deployed...


i had to go kpo. so i drag missy along...

it was a circus in the quiet estate of Fernvale. 1 pumper, 1 mini pumper(not rhino though), 1 CD patrol, 1 civil ambulance, 2 police patrol cars....
firefighters looking out for smoke at the kitchen windows. no luck. then they were ordered to climb every floor to smell for one!
no action plus rain coming down... missy n me retreat..
what happen?? wo pu chi tao...

C'caine

ole

ole

abah is not really a soccer enthusiasts. he hardly even play the game. ummie always say somethings not right when a man doesnt play ball. but the world cup fever got the better of him. not only did he played recently.. he got the charts, profiles, tactics... abah is all geared up! he had just approved to have all in the family to crash at our place for the opening match tomorrow. when i say all i mean all... nyang, baktok x2, baba x2, ami x2 and my boo... woohoo..

i'm ready are you...

first up will be 'no ballack team' VS ???

missyE

strands of issue

strands of issue

hair is the winning litter around the house. he is always mocking me bout my hair at every corner he turns. well it is normal to lose about 1000 strands a day! according to glen&FD anyway. unfortunately even the little one is shedding. its all over her pillowcases. then i noticed some pillowcase do not have as much. so i thought the material contributed....

It's hard to say. Babies' hair growth patterns can vary widely. Some babies are born with a full head of hair, while others have only a sparse covering. What's more, infants often lose all the hair they're born with during their first six months. Sometimes the hair will grow right back in, but in a different color or texture. In other babies, it will take a while to grow back. Either way, be reassured that your child will have normal hair growth at some point, although it may take some time to be noticeable.

sad to say i think when it comes to hairy issues... she may have inherited my genes. i was a vbb till my first birthday. hair becomes thick only in primary school. very thick... now hairdresses complain that cutting my hair is as much as cutting three heads! ha... so i am confident that missy will have nice thick hair later in life. but for now.. botak may be one of her early words in life..hee...
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i am puzzled bout one thing though... she gets this dirt in her hair. particularly at the back. the dirt is peculiar. its like the eraser dirt you get when you rub away pencil marks. it gets entangled with her hair. the only way to rid it is to cut! now she has little hair to star with.. yet this dirt keeps coming back almost imediately. if i leave it.. the rubber ball gets bigger. i have changed her pillow.. not at my in-laws place though. still i doubt its the pillow. actually i'm clueless...

what is it?

C'caine