scrappy~feeding

lighter than air

lighter than air
we think we know the reason for your temperamental ways for these past few weeks. you want to be swayed to sleep in the swinging cot a.k.a buai. you have been challenging me since last week especially during the day. night time you are discipline enuff to sleep by your own in the cot.

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*flash back* just you and me with your inconsolable crying. its definitely getting louder and angrier. housework put aside, i dont even find time to eat. come nightfall i will call abah if he can return home early. untouchable during his study days he gave me a short strict unsympathetic no! at wits end, both of us would end up tearing together. i even thought you dont love me anymore. you wanted to be with your caretakers rather than your own ummie. i was devastated.

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then baba help me get a buai for our place all the way from across the causeway. i came home, open the door and there it was... a huge carton box with the buai illustration by a company called cherryland.

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it sat there for the whole week. i dont want to assemble it. i dont want you be in it. i refuse to give in...
but the damage has been done. whenever we go to someones house. you would cry for as long as 2 hours. i think you prefer the malls..*girls will be girls*..coz you would never cry so long during our shopping spree.

my fear is realised...you getting attached to buai. i thought we go cold turkey. but abah would not back me up. he said it will be tough for them to take care of you without it. but it is already bad now that you would cry whenever you are sleepy...pfftt..

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yesterday...you gave another dose of your cries. so abah ripped the box open and assemble the swinging contraption. i actually wanted to put it on sale at ebay! ten mins in it you were still wailing. so i stepped in and give the ol' ummie hug. force feed you and place you on the cot. soon you started singing your lullaby. so abah and me left you alone to sleep...

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so i will only use it in emergency... like someone at home to make me place you there! its hard when i do not have the control over things. i am a leo.. i strive on leadership. not having my own mom/family to take care of you meaning i cant happily slap rules and regulations...

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i once posted that i will not complain about motherhood or about you... well this is just me letting out my frustrations. we do love you and you light up our lives.. cranky o not...

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it took me six hours to complete this entry...thanx to the frequent machine calls...lunch..m/c call...shopping..m/c call...n what nots.. but today is my last day of werk. 4 off days lies ahead.. anyone wanna ask me out? well i still have the PC to fix amidst the housework... hee.. not so free after all... hee hee...will be back latest sunday...

ummiE

scrappy~4months

overdue

ummiE

virus invasion

virus invasion

part trois... the last invasion log was 27 april. why only a month?... its beacoz he set up the PC...hee.. he is (always) the founder of whatever virus that came knocking... hmmm... makes me wonder bout his innocence...

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well its a whole week of no PC... it drives me crazy that i cannot pay my bills. so thanx starhub for disconnecting my cabletv.. bah...

i didnt even know about the earth quake till 3days later! sad right...

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its not easy at home as missy is throwing tantrums ever so often... she is capable of crying for 2 hours.. now wer will i find the time to do the PC but to sacrifice my sleep... well at least now that his exams are over he is more active in babysitting..hurray..

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still we challenged ourselves with cranky missy and indulged in the GreatSingaporeSale.. buying more clothes for her... and how does she say thank you.... right by crying wat else.. lol.. :-)

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*posted from werk as i havent had my hands on e pc yet...hee...*

C'caine

results

results

today i go home early because its founders day. i got my report book.

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i got all A except for Malay, B.. hee..

i got 5 As and 1 B..

*wait ah i take my report book*

i got A for english language,

err..m.a.t.h.e.m.a.t.i.c.s,

err..s.o.c.i.a.l s.t.u.d.i.e.s,

arts & craft, music,

err..p.h.y.s.i.c.a.l education,

err..c.i.v.i.c.s & m.o.r.a.l education

& B for malay.

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yeah...

pinkylicious

A.I

A.I

she made me cry once again...

dunno what happen. dunno what she wants. dunno where it hurts. i don't know... i was at wits end...

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so i gave up and sit her upright on the sofa when she flashed at me. no...she flashed a smile at Taylor Hicks. how can i forget. she is a bigger fan than me. in fact this happened before when she turned 3mths. she screamed out so loud. he concluded that we made her miss 3/4 of the show, thats why...

now, not only did she calmed down instantly. she actually started singing her own tunes. *sigh* i took a breather. got myself together and try to enjoy the show...

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i have to say i lost it since mrDaughtry left the show. no wait.. actually since mrBice lost last year. they were so blind to let boring, no personality whatsoever Underwood woman win. fools they are. i say they are still bloody fools 'em americanas. now i really lost my faith in A.I. if the woman were to win again this year. lets say they lost a fan. maybe two...

least i still have project runway...

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then she squished on me. hot yellow goo on my hands. argh..

nevermind that. soon after the clean up she started whining. of course, time: 2110hr. its over..

C'caine

needs

needs

celtics said u hate loneliness? quick tampered at times? needs to be needed....

you've been crying for these reasons maybe. it scares me to think that we may have the same traits.. well maybe not far from the tree. still it scares me. three loggerheads in da house. but as muslims we know where we stand and respect will be one of your early lessons in life...

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i have been trying to feed you. your last 100ml was at 0630am now is 1300pm and i only manage to force in bout 80ml. you would take five sips then let go. you should be on your second bottle dear. meanwhile i have plenty on my to-do-list. so its only right that you help me out. being a good girl and amuse yourself silly would be great for a start. here you are doing the laundry chores with me... now i need my bath. so you better drink up and take your nap or you will end up in the bathroom wit me...

ummiE

ahli nujum

ahli nujum
according to celtic astrologers we are faithful ladies...

Cypress Tree (Faithfulness) - strong, muscular, adaptable, takes what life has to give but doesn't necessarily like it, strives to be content, optimistic, wants to be financially independent, wants love and affection, hates loneliness, passionate lover which cannot be satisfied, faithful, quick tempered at times, can be unruly and careless, loves to gain knowledge, needs to be needed.

heres what we look like... of course ummie is da fat tree... i am the skinny one... *loc ~laugh out cheeky*

so what tree are you.. huh? huh? huh?...

missyE

r & r

r&r
*stretching* good morning ummie...

wow i had a good good rest. its tuesday mornin huh... did i sleep thru monday? oh well who cares.. i can imagine me knocked out like this...

missyE

angst

angst

you know i was running fever yet you still bring me out...

you know i was sleeping yet you still carry me away...

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dont blame me when i was cranky and whinny while you indulge the great sale...

dont blame me when i wail away my inconsolable cries thru out the journey home...

*when syidz n mom could not hush me in da back seat,

why should i hush when you left me in the car seat alone*

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today is your work day, a morning call for me..

today is my cousin birthday, a party to attend...

dont blame me...*yawning*

missyE

Shhh...

shhh...

its all so quiet.. shhh... shhh... it just little miss dopey, me and housework this week. confined coz she's not well. and lonely coz he's exam is on monday. he comes home with hugs and kixxes but i know that his brain is all tied up in a knot...

i miss my sis. i don't think she does coz the calls are not coming in. sometimes i get emo attacks when i dont meet them. i guess missy kept me occupied. if not the housework did...

i am gonna try to make it to the nearest mall today... juz missy n me and the fundamentals of shopping. if she allows me to...

C'caine

fever

fever

you had your immunisation exercise yesterday. Dr Joanne Lim took your weight, height and skull circumference. then she did the development test. when she exercised your limbs or when she poked you on your tummy and groin area. you found it most amusing... as she prepared your jab you were practicing your cry. naturally as the jabs enters your cry heightens. but it all ends before we left the room. thats my girl...

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today i will serve only you. your fever is brewing. i know its gonna be a long day. your cries in distress saddens me too. you sure spelled out to me that it hurts and you're not comfortable. my ears are peeled to hear your calls when i am not beside you. i will soothe you and rock you in my arms whenever you ask for it my lurve. trust me i am trying me best to nurse you...

ummiE

willie

real
meet my pal, willie. he is a whale. he pops out from the tele. he is from that baby einstein show. i play with willie at home and baba's house. he's funny and sings a lot too. but his voice sounds like a woman most of the time. willie would tickle me to the bone. he eats my tummy and sometimes i get sick from it. especially after feeding. then i would eat him too. he will get all wet. well, he is the creatures of the sea.... *smiling*..my pal willie...

missyE

uefa

Zzz

i wasnt sure who i was 'gunning' for but i slept through it all... managed to get a glimpse of the final 1 min of the credits! i wanted to see how did the hawk faced manager bow in defeat... then missy woke up angry. she missed the action too.. but a bottle of warm milk would cool her down... i wouldnt say the same for me....

C'caine

H20

H2O

no this is not bad hair day... this is the aftershock...didnt you find the water birth clip on the news today rather Gore... that water birth mommy was wearing only her bikini top! and this is our home news... i saw her bikini clad breasts, her exploding tummy, her taking out the pain by squeezing the other's hand, also when the baby slide out into the world...i saw her labour !..yikes... oh i hope ummie dont have a footage of herself in labour. i would so die, not to see it. i saw ummie scringe in disgust watching the clip. maybe her labour was easy. so seeing such agony makes her uncomfortable.. ouch..

for that i wish her happy belated mothersDay... ;p

missyE

fireball

fireball

3 fuse explosions later...

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me ~ some kinda stench coming from my head from too much redundant problem solving...

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him ~ is it because y0u're thinking and trying to solve rubbish project? thinking of rubbish causes heads to stink...

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cOnclusi0n...my jOb stinks!..

C'caine

luna

lunalu
i know you are reading this.. you have been since before i was born. are you having fun aunty LuNa. one day bring me along too. i wanna go on the jet plane. is it cold there like aircon. meanwhile gifts and clothes would do me just fine. thank you. remember that my height is 58cm. that means from my head to my toe. so you do the maths. this is for you...

ummie misses you too...

missyE

mothersday

mothersday
started the day at 0530hrs ~getting ready for work! mother's day o not. it just sux to work on sundays...
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MD..it was never an event since we *brother n me* were traumatized by my dad to never celebrate such events ever.. the ultimatum came only after we pin up the self decorated banner in their room!... however when we grew up to make friends a priority rather than family. my dad change the rules and make these events a reason for us to gather for dinner... hee.... all those money saved from gifts of yesteryears are thrown into family feast...
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anywayz with a baby @3months how is she suppose to show her appreciation to me... i did however receive a touching call from my sweet one this morning... awww...

Stickwitu by Pussycat Dolls

More music video codes at WhatsThatCode.com

a celebration for motherhood all around the world. i still got to work at it till i get my first MD card from my missy...

C'caine

rollover

1st

my first documented roll over and ummie's first scrapbookingit reads: First rollover...at 3 months you are a cranky, loud blaring, ummie hogging, night waking, fist sucking, binky clogged baby...

thanx for the very detailed description of me, ummie. you still got a lot to learn too... ceh..

missyE

fall

uh oh

you are now learning to roll over. you will create a ruckus whenever you succeed. like kicking over the powder during diaper change. then i sat you down beside me for my prayers. you were at it again. as i was taking my ablution i heard a thump followed by your cries. i knew the inevitable has happened. you not only managed to sit upright but you outdo yourself. you toppled forward landing face down! this is your first of plenty more mishaps to come. be strong my lady. for i may not be there for your next fall...

ummiE

big deal

big deal

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recently everyone kept asking me about exam. wats dat? i keep telling them its a TEST. topical test. then they would ask me if i had study? huh..study.. for wat? my sister especially, would ask me loads of question about the test that i had. told her its mass test. M.A.S.S test. then she got more confused and bombard me with more questions. these adults think they know everything!

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later i also explained that we sat in single rows. we cannot copy answer because it is a test. also i am the row leader. it means i will collect everyones test paper. my sis always praises me and is very proud of me. hmmm...i AM Row Leader *feeling all great and mighty* but thats all that they do realy, ask questions. they never actually ask me to sit and study or do revision. so everyday after school its just me and disney channel. after i do my homework of course. but sometimes i dont know how to do. so i wait till they get back to help me. meanwhile i will hog the tele and nenek will retreat to my brother's room to watch her boring drama episodes.

pinkylicious

kitty

sissy pussy

i wouldn't be caught dead in this...

well the car i dont mind... but the decal hell no....*lol*

C'caine

bite me

bite me

missyE

duty free

duty free

i was dreaming of neverland when i was interupted by a warm squish at my bum bum. oh oh... i pooped.. i called out for ummie... i need to get this slab of sloosh off my bottom..

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ummmmieeeee... its been 2mins now.. wer is she. i cant see her its too dark. its 1am.. funny i've never pooped so late before. must have been the chocolate delight i had last night.
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ummie always feeds me weird stuff - salty, sweet, sour even spicy. and she says i am a fussy girl when i start wailing. hey, bad food sets the wrong mood..
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*lights came on and someone scrambles to make milk*
here she comes... no wait its abah.. no i want ummie... abah you dont know how to change me diapers.. i pooped abah.. i pooped..
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he stuffs milk down my throat... ummmieee... he now clogs my mouth with a pacifier.. ummieeee... he shoves the milk again... ummmieee... by now the warm squish has risen up my waist...
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after 5mins of struggle i heard her voice. abah lifts me up. now he sways me back and forth.. ummmieeee.... i heard her voice again...
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now he passes me over to ummie.. ummieee i poooped... she heard me. so i lay back and relax while she cleans me proper..
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she apologises on behalf of abah for not understanding me.. she said it was his night duty...
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i had a fresh change of clothes. while abah change my beddings. then she feeds me some nice warm milk... yummm.. den abah took over...
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i gave him a smile for trying...
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i am soo tired. abah has got a lot to learn but at my expense! i hope he fairs better the next time he's on duty. or i will just give everything a miss and wake up to my beautiful ummie in da morning…
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now back to neverland...Zzzzz

missyE

faith

faith

meanwhile i have found this...

*VIDEO REMOVED*
reminds me of my skankin' riding' no curfew nites' flirtin' backpackin' dancin' puffin' days. now its feedin' changin' sleepin' workin' hubbin' days....

WARNING: do not practice what they preach coz they are obviously of different faith. Matisyahu is a popular hasidic jewish reggae artist. he brings electrifying fusion of orthodox Judaism and classic reggae music to his tunes. whats in his name : Matishyahu is a 2nd century BCE Jewish high priest of the Maccabees.

C'caine

virus invasion

virus invasion

part deux... the last invasion log was 24 Jan 2006. lets see how long it will last this time. being a working mom even formatting the PC has got to wait a while.....

C'caine

all new

all new

it makes all the difference. i used to be the gal who simply slap on Tshirt and jeans then head out the door. now getting ready starts the night before. ironing the coordinated skarf and blouse. plus the bonus task of packing baby's needs too. even with all this hassle i was still half an hour late the whole of last week. having to send her over baba's and to settle her in the car, i can't seem to stick to the schedule...

then at work another drama would surface. working in the 'cleanroom' manufacturing industry have no mercy on us muslimahs. they dont have a procedure to accomadate us. as i try to explain my way through the training dept, a fellow muslimah slams criticsm on me. as an elder she could have offered advise or explain why we still have to abide to procedures. but no.. she had to scream in my face that i definitely do not deserve better treatment. i admit defeat. so i had to change the way i don my hijjab slightly to accomodate the 'cleanroom protocols'

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plenty of questions came my way. why do i have to wear? why not all of them wear? why only now you start to wear? some pleaded with me 'don't wear lah.. not nice...' some even spark a debate on their views and philosophy. i simply smile at times coz i just dont know how to explain. then i saw this video and got even more confuse...

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on a lighter note... my love for bright colours dont do me much justice either. i am like a bobbing headlight going back and forth. yesterday was red. today green. tommorrow amber. a bobbing traffic light amidst a sea of grey machines. i am just too loud for them to ignore...

C'caine

aniq

hello aniq
you met aniq yesterday. and you got friendly with him without ummie having to introduce even. bought you another shoe hee... *your parents are shoemaniac*

then you had to make a big fuss over it and wail till ppl were looking at us. made our way to the nearest nursery. haste and hassle to make your formula as fast as i could. however the moment Aniq lay beside you, you started to coo at him.

you chatted your way even with a bottle in your mouth!

but with a smile like this who could resist right...

so i had to isolate you and feed you right. later we continued shopping...

aunty shireen's girls are really a joy to watch. siblings make the best of friends. you gotta wait a while though. Insya Allah...

then you got tired and made more fuss in the car. thanx to aunty hana who put you to sleep. you really like it coz when she left, you couldnt go back to sleep!

143

143

i've never seen abah this way before. you have brought a new light to his life...

abah is quiet and reserved when it comes to love and affection. he is not one who would play with kids either. he is rather cold.. heck he doesn't even share much laughter! then i received a bling bling from him earlier. he says its a gift for these reasons :

1.. newbie in da family

2.. donning the hejab

3.. stubbing the butt

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then when we went out for a day of shopping and movies. he kept pestering me to call you. *i never call to check in on you coz it will leave me sad to hear if you're crying or not drinking* he would pester me again. i never knew he would miss you so much... his paternal instincts has kicked in. heck he shows me more affection now in appreciation of taking good care of you.

awww... i'm floating....

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and we will live in peace together

free together

our hands entwined we'll stay forever

no one can break us from each other

we'll be together. as one. in our hearts

werk

werk...

starts today! i thought about how today would be. how i have to drag myself. well so far nothing much really. cannot deny that i dont miss ya. just wondering if you've been a good girl.

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i sent you to baba house at 0630am. got to werk. checked emails. check the production line. had big laughs with those old faces. look for frenz...err.. frenz.. well no kaki today.

i have to admit a lot have changed while i was away. the usual kaki no longer here. still its not so bad as today is sunday. the big day is tomorrow.

all around will be screaming to see me back and demanding for baby photos. well i do know the real reason for them missing me. its all the issues at the production line. i've got a machine waiting for me and people waiting to be send for training.. Oh! if i lost you dear, let me explain... ummie is working as a technical speacialist. meaning i am a doctor to robots and machines.

its gonna be fast lane from tomorrow onwards. i say bring it on...

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oops..tommorrow is my follow up with gynae. so i wont be going to work. hee hee i guess today is rehearsal then. i did quite badly - forgot to bring my employmt pass, my praying kit and best was parking. driving through the gantry with a hired car(non registered IU unit). i will be charged whole day!

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tommorrow is another rest day for ummie then. i will send you over to baba's because ummie got a date with abah in the afternoon. juz us spending time together for the small event of our 2nd anniversary...